Why Doesn't. WtK go to events?

WishtoKneel does go to events.

You don't recognize him.

Which is kind of the point.   And a professional skill. 
(not a bad one to learn, by the way.)



Have you heard of 'once bitten, twice shy'?

How about, 'once burned to flinders, forever shy'? 

My last but one decided that my inability to move with her to another state meant I wasn't a 'twue' submissive, or dedicated enough to 'Her' service. 

So she emailed photos and details about our time in the lifestyle to my father and mother, my partner, my senior supervising Agent, and two old friends from High School.

Essentially, everyone she had an email for in my email address book.

How nice of her.

I lost two of my oldest friends.  My parents still invite me to family affairs - but there's a very definite tone of "it's okay if you can't attend, really." 

It technically violates the code of Ethics we swear an oath to when we take a badge.  Consent, in PA, can't be given for assault.  My supervisor wrote it off as "whatever", since I was (assumably) the one taking all of the assault anyway.   He had a long and very painful (and humiliating) conference with me in his office about whether he needed to be concerned about my predilections for being assaulted spilling over into my professional duties.   And then he informed me that our division's servers had suffered 'another bullshit IT problem', and all incoming emails the day before were lost.  "Recovery don't look great.   Hope you saved anything important.  Now why are you still in my office?  I've gott things to do.  Dismissed."

That was also the day my partner took me out for a beer (a LOT of them) and showed me his Fetlife profile.  And his wife's.  And my clerical manager's (we were seven beers in by then, and I don't remember much other than jokes about our metal detectors). 

It was a day I learned to be outside looking in, and only to trust people in the lifestyle who I already knew or who I'd served with.  Take one in the vest next to me, and then you get to tie me up. 

It was a day I learned that dating was fine - committing to 24/7, not so much.  Photos or videos, never. 

So yes.  I do go to events.  Very rarely, very quietly, and not for long.  Classes too.  I learn.  I take notes.  I play sometimes with one or two people I already know and trust in the lifestyle, if they're available or if they want to see me at their home when I'm not working. 

And no, you won't recognize me.  I probably won't even talk. 

And now you know why.

If you’re going to ask…

I’m very happy to consider myself a service submissive and chew toy.  I help where I can, around my duties as a law enforcement officer.   Which, sorry – those come first.   I’m not bailing out on a duty day to deep clean your house at the last minute.  I realize you have a party tonight.   I have a duty, today.

If you’re going to ask a submissive for something, please remember that we’re human beings, not vending machines for money and services.  I rake leaves and shovel snow for my neighbors when the weather is bad.  I help with wood finishing at my partner’s wife’s business, because she asks and he’s my unit.  I chop firewood for another neighbor on the other side of my block – she’s a 42 year old widow and a Navy veteran with two kids.  Chopping firewood for her kids to have fires (and have a lower heat bill) is the least of her worries. Magically making half a cord of fire wood appear in her firewood is the least I (or anyone) can do.

After that – yes, I’ll help if I can.   I avoid events (once torched to cinders, twice shy), but I will help where I can outside of that.

Just please remember – we’re not vending machines.  We can’t, won’t, or shouldn’t be the types to drop everything to meet you for coffee (and pay for it, and bring you a ‘gift’ tribute) at your beck and call. 

Because if we are that kind of submissive – why would you actually want us?  Isn't that why God invented ATMs?

That’s not a submissive.   That’s a boy who watched a few too many porn movies, and will disappear as soon as he realizes you don’t live in a latex catsuit with the crotch cut out.

In the real world, we’re men who submit because we feel the emotion.   We feel the desire, to find one person who weakens us, cares for us, and takes our service.

In the rest of the world – we’re vending machines. 

Take your pick, Misses.  

Simple Laundry Softener - Easy Recipes for service submissives

You've probably been told to use vinegar before, if you're a home DIYer.

Don't.   Seriously.  You'll make clothes that smell awful and mildew easily.


2 cups white distilled vinegar
4 cups conditioner (ask your Mistress what her favorite scent is - either use a generic of that, or find essential oils and use unscented)
6-12 drops of essential oil, if you didn't use scented conditioner
6 cups boiling water
1/2 cup baking soda


Bring the water to a boil (use a pot, microwave won't do it) and then put into a big metal bowl to preserve the heat and to leave room for everything else.   If you have it, a Kitchen-Aide mixer is great for this - it's what I use when I'm making it for a gift for Domme's in my life.

Mix in the baking soda first, and then the conditioner.   You may need to heat the conditioner slightly (30-40 seconds in a glass measuring cup in the microwave) if it's especially thick.   Stir thoroughly until mixed entirely.   Keep it hot, so move quickly.  If you're using the mixer, leave it on low and just leave it on the entire time. 

You may have to use a silicone spatula.  That's fine - just don't "splat" it into the bowl.  You're going to get covered like that. 

Add the essential oil if needed.   Do it AFTER the conditioner.   Seriously, it won't spread completely otherwise.   Reheat if you need to at this point, but do it gently.  Very gently. 

Pour in the vinegar.   SLOWLY.  You're mixing vinegar and baking soda - you will get bubbling. 

Again.  Pour it SLOWLY, and the other ingredients will minimize the bubbling.   Keep wisking or mixing while you do it. 

AGAIN.   Pour it SLOWLY.   You remember those lava tubes you made as a kid?  Don't turn your kitchen into one. 

Keep mixing until entirely mixed in.

Let it set. 

No, seriously.   Let it set, or you're going to have an exploding bottle.

Use a nicer bottle from a craft store for it.   You can find large, sealing bottles for cheap at those stores (or Wal-Mart or Target) and they're re-usable.  Worth the investment - re-using a plastic container for this makes for a short life for the container. 

Use a half cup per wash.

Done.  Hopefully you get "good boy", or at least some bites.

Good luck, and may the clean kitchen be with you,

WtK

Simple Laundry Soap - Easy Recipes for service submissives

3 Cups of Water
1/2 Cup of Washing Soda (see the next for how to make it)
1/2 Cup Generic Dishwashing Liquid (ask your mistress what scent she likes)
1/2 cup Borax


Bring three cups of water to a boil, either on a disposable pot on the stove, or in a microwavable bowl or measuring cup.   I use a 4 cup measuring cup - cheap, re-usable, sterilizable and good to have for other things.

Slowly stir in washing soda and borax, and wisk until dissolved.

Add in dishwashing liquid, stir until you get a nice thick soup.

Pour into an old (and thoroughly cleaned, soap and HOT water, boys) laundry detergent bottle.  Use a single set amount per wash.   It works beautifully, and simply.

You can use a nicer container if you want to be fancier - you'll see the next post has some things about that. 

Go Pinterest how to make one. 

Seriously, go Pinterest it. 

I know you're a sub male (straight or otherwise).   Suck it up.   I'm not Pinterest, I'm WtK.

Good luck, and good bitey-toying,

WtK