Why Doesn't. WtK go to events?

WishtoKneel does go to events.

You don't recognize him.

Which is kind of the point.   And a professional skill. 
(not a bad one to learn, by the way.)



Have you heard of 'once bitten, twice shy'?

How about, 'once burned to flinders, forever shy'? 

My last but one decided that my inability to move with her to another state meant I wasn't a 'twue' submissive, or dedicated enough to 'Her' service. 

So she emailed photos and details about our time in the lifestyle to my father and mother, my partner, my senior supervising Agent, and two old friends from High School.

Essentially, everyone she had an email for in my email address book.

How nice of her.

I lost two of my oldest friends.  My parents still invite me to family affairs - but there's a very definite tone of "it's okay if you can't attend, really." 

It technically violates the code of Ethics we swear an oath to when we take a badge.  Consent, in PA, can't be given for assault.  My supervisor wrote it off as "whatever", since I was (assumably) the one taking all of the assault anyway.   He had a long and very painful (and humiliating) conference with me in his office about whether he needed to be concerned about my predilections for being assaulted spilling over into my professional duties.   And then he informed me that our division's servers had suffered 'another bullshit IT problem', and all incoming emails the day before were lost.  "Recovery don't look great.   Hope you saved anything important.  Now why are you still in my office?  I've gott things to do.  Dismissed."

That was also the day my partner took me out for a beer (a LOT of them) and showed me his Fetlife profile.  And his wife's.  And my clerical manager's (we were seven beers in by then, and I don't remember much other than jokes about our metal detectors). 

It was a day I learned to be outside looking in, and only to trust people in the lifestyle who I already knew or who I'd served with.  Take one in the vest next to me, and then you get to tie me up. 

It was a day I learned that dating was fine - committing to 24/7, not so much.  Photos or videos, never. 

So yes.  I do go to events.  Very rarely, very quietly, and not for long.  Classes too.  I learn.  I take notes.  I play sometimes with one or two people I already know and trust in the lifestyle, if they're available or if they want to see me at their home when I'm not working. 

And no, you won't recognize me.  I probably won't even talk. 

And now you know why.